Abby's
gone. No other way to say it really.
The constant companion for my wife and I for the last sixteen years is no
longer with us. The cat who would be human, (not to insult her in any way), had
to be euthanized. We will miss her every day.
She was
the second kitten we brought into the family, only a week after finding Emmy,
by accident, at a church fair in Vermont.
Emmy turned out to be a little ankle biter and we quickly decided she
needed a playmate. We were getting tired of pulling Emmy off our legs first
thing every morning. My wife found Emmy
and it was my turn to look in the animal shelters for a companion kitten.
There was
really only one choice as I walked into the holding area at the shelter, with
the barking dogs and older cats trying to ignore their situation. Mind you, I
could have taken them all home with me then and there, but, living in a small
apartment in Boston, that wouldn't be practical. And then there was Abigail.
She and
her brother shared a cage together. She was a ball of grey fluff, and as I
walked toward her cage, she stuck her paw out and tried to grab me towards her.
I could almost hear her saying "Pick me!
Pick me!" Of course I did. No choice really.
As she
grew into an adult cat, Abby and my wife created a bond I never thought
possible. Abby worshipped at the feet of her goddess, Donna. There really was
nothing in the universe for Abby; life was waiting for her goddess to appear.
Then all was right with the world. Oh, I was ok, and could be a good
substitute, but I was a mere priest to the cult of Donna, who could sustain her
until her goddess appeared.
Another
amazing thing was her gaze. While you were petting her, she would stare
directly into your eyes. Break that gaze to do something else, and you would
feel a gentle pat of a soft grey paw on the arm or shoulder, reminding you to
make contact again. A new book on living with cats states you should never make
eye contact with your cats, that they don't enjoy it and feel threatened by it. Nonsense.
Don't believe it. All our cats look you straight in the eyes, and for
Abby, it was a form of non-verbal communication. For her, it was a necessary as
that taste of milk every morning.
Abigail
was the only vegetarian cat I've ever known.
She would walk away in disgust from the plate of canned cat food we
might give the other cats as a treat. Tuna fish? Horrible. Cooked Turkey?
Blech! We never had the heart to tell
her the dry cat food she ate contained meat products. No, her favorite treats
were milk, cereal at the bottom of the bowl (with milk of course), and oatmeal
cookies with raisins.
Let me
just say, as a public service announcement, that raisins are not good for cats.
Pre-internet, we didn't know this when Abby was a kitten. While I was eating some raisins one day,
Abby decided the scent was too much to resist and tried to poke her face in the
box. Not knowing better, I gave her one.
She scarfed it down and asked for more.
I gave her a few, but it just didn't seem right so we stopped giving her
any more. We were lucky she showed no ill-affects from it. But it became her
obsession the rest of her life to sniff out raisins.
Over the
holidays just past, while Abby grew sicker from a combination of inflamed bowel
disease (IBD) and lymphoma, I baked cookies to give away. One batch attracted her -- Oatmeal cookies.
She found a cookie I was nibbling on and she tried to nibble too. So I broke her off a few tiny pieces
(without raisins, of course) and she ate them down and looked for more. This at a time when she had slowly stopped
eating. Those few crumbs got her excited about food for the first time in
weeks. And I will say she must have
found one last stray raisin on the coffee table, which went suddenly missing.
So, there
will be no more gentle pats for attention, no more snuggles in my arms while
falling asleep at night (positioned so she could see her goddess at all times),
no more long gazes while in my lap (while her goddess was out of the room), no
more furry toys carried with mewling noises and dropped at our feet --
apparently because she thought we just couldn't feed ourselves properly.
No more
trips to the vets for her (no more vet techs sent to the hospital for
stitches), no more struggling to find the best position to sleep (when she
could sleep), no more pain killers, no more fluid injections, no more
struggling attempts to spoon feed her high-fat canned pet food to keep her
weight up when she stopped eating. Just no more.
We lost
our best friend, in this human/cat herd we call home. There's an empty spot now, as we pick up and put away her
favorite cat toys. Life goes on. The
other cats keep reminding us of that.
Abby
Special
thanks to the staff of Falls Road Veterinary Clinic for all their help caring
for Abigail.
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