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IN THE OLD PATHS FOR men who know
how to bear themselves company there are few better ways of improving a
holiday, especially a home-keeping, home-coming, family feast, like our autumnal
Thanksgiving, than to walk in one's own childish steps — up through the old cattle
pasture behind the old homestead, into the old woods. Every jutting stone in
the path — and there are many — is just where it was. Your feet remember them
perfectly (as your hand remembers which way the door-knob turns, though you
yourself might be puzzled to tell), and of their own accord take a zigzag
course among them, coming down without fail in the clear intermediary spaces.
Or if, by chance, in some peculiarly awkward spot, the toe of your boot forgets
itself, the jar only helps you to feel the more at home. You say with the
poet, “I have been here before.” Some things are unaltered, you are glad to
find. The largest of the trees have been felled, but nobody has dug out the
protruding boulders or blasted away the outcropping ledges. One good word we
may say for death. It lasts well. It is nothing like a vapor. Not a rod of the
way but talks to you of something. Here, on the left, down in the hollow by the
swamp, you used to set snares. Once — fateful day! — you found a partridge in
the noose. Then what a fury possessed you! If you had shot your first elephant
you could hardly have been more completely beside yourself. It was a cruel
sight; you felt it so; but you had caught a partridge! With all your boyish
unskillfulness you had lured the unhappy bird to his death. A spray of red
barberries had been too bright for his resistance. He discovered his mistake
when the cord began to pull. “Oh, why was I such a fool!” he thought; just as
you have thought more than once since then, when you have run your own neck
into some snare of the fowler. Yonder, on the
right, grew little scattered patches of trailing arbutus. Every spring you
gathered a few blossoms, going thither day after day, watching for them to
open. And the patches are there still. Some of them are no broader than a
dinner plate, and the largest of them would not cover the top of a bushel
basket. For more than fifty years — perhaps for more than five hundred — they
have looked as they do now; a few score of leaves and an annual crop of a dozen
or two of flowers. Their endurance, with so many greedy hands after them, is
one of the miracles. Probably they are older than any tree in the township. It
isn’t the tall things that live longest. Here the path goes
through an opening in a rude stone wall, which was tumbling down as long ago as
you can remember. Beyond it, in your day, stood a dense pine wood, a darksome,
solemn place, where you went quietly. Now, not a pine is left. A mere
wilderness of hardwood scrub. The old “cart-path,” which at this point swerved
to the left, has grown over till there is no following it. But the loss does
not matter. You take a trail among the boulders, a trail familiar to you of
old; the same that you took in winter, skates in hand, bound for Jason
Halfbrook's meadow. Many a merry hour you spent there, heedless of the cold.
You could skate then, or thought you could. The backward circle, the “Dutch
roll,” the “spread-eagle,” these and other wonders were in your repertory. They
were feats to be proud of, and you made the most of them. Nor need you feel
ashamed now at the recollection. When the Preacher said, “There is nothing
better than that a man should rejoice in his own works,” he was not thinking
exclusively of an author and his books. You did well to be proud while you
were able. It was pride, in part, that kept you warm. Now, if you stand beside
a city skating-resort, you see young fellows performing feats that throw all your
old-fashioned, countrified accomplishments into the shade. You look on, openmouthed.
Boys of to-day have better skates than you had. Perhaps they have better legs.
One thing they do not have, — a better time. This morning,
however, you are not going to the Halfbrook meadow. There is no ice, or none
that will bear a man's weight; and perhaps you would not skate if there were.
Do I take you to be too old? No, not that; but you are out of practice. I
should hate to see you risking yourself well over on the outer edge, or
attempting a sudden turnabout. And you agree with me, I imagine, for you quit
the trail at the Town Path (the compositor will please allow the capitals —
the path deserves them) and turn your steps northward. The path, I say,
deserves a proper name. It is not strictly a highway, I am aware; if you were
to stumble into a hole here, the town could not be held liable for damages; but
it is a pretty ancient thoroughfare, nevertheless, a reasonably straight
course through the woods by the long way of them. Generation after generation
has traveled it. You are walking not only in your own footsteps, but in those
of your ancestors, who must have gone this way many a time to speak and vote
at town meeting. Some of the oldest of them are buried in this very wood, less
than half a mile back; a resting-place such as you would like pretty well for
yourself when the time comes. You follow the path
till it brings you near to a cliff. This is one of the places you had in your
eye on setting out. This land is yours, and you have come to look at it. A strange thing it
is, an astonishing impertinence, that a man should assume to own a piece of
the earth; himself no better than a wayfarer upon it; alighting for a moment
only; coming he knows not whence, going he knows not whither. Yet convention
allows the claim. Men have agreed to foster one another's illusions in this
regard, as in so many others. They knew, blindly, before any one had the wit to
say it in so many words, that “life is the art of being well deceived.” And so
they have made you owner of this acre or two of woodland. All the power of the
State would be at your service, if necessary, in maintaining the title. These tall pine
trees are yours. You have sovereignty over them, to use a word that is just now
sweet in the American mouth. You may do anything you like with them. They are
older than you, I should guess, and in the order of nature they will long
outlive you; for aught I know, also, it may be true, what Thoreau said
(profanely, as some thought), that they will go to as high a heaven; but for
the time being they have no rights that you are under the slightest obligation
to consider. You may kill them to-morrow, and nobody will accuse you of
murder. You may turn all their beauty to ashes, and it will be nobody's
business to remonstrate. The trees are yours. I hope,
notwithstanding, that you do not quite think so. I would rather believe that
you look upon your so-called proprietorship as little more than a convenient
legal fiction; of use, possibly, against human trespassers, but having no force
as against the right of the trees to live a tree's life and fulfill a tree's
end. One of them, I
perceive, is dead already. Like many a human being we have known, it had a poor
start; no more than “half a chance,” as the saying goes. It struck root on a
ledge, in a cleft of rock, and after a struggle of twenty or thirty years has
found the conditions too hard for it. Its neighbors all appear to be doing
well, with the exception of one that had its upper half blown away a few years
ago by a disrespectful wind. The wind is an anarchist; it bloweth where it
listeth, with small regard for human sovereignty. Your land, to my
eye, is of a piece with all the land round about; or it would be, only for its
tall gray cliff. That is indeed a beauty, a true distinction; not so tall as it
was forty or fifty years ago, of course, but still a brave and picturesque
sight. I should like the illusion of owning a thing like that myself. And the
brook just beyond, so narrow and so lively, — that, too, you may reasonably be
proud of, though it is nothing but a wet-weather stream, coming from the hill
and tumbling musically downward into Dyer's Run, past one boulder and another,
from late autumn till late spring, and then going dry. You have only pleasant
memories of it, for you were oftenest here in the wet season. It has always
been one of your singularities, I remember, to be less in the woods in summer
than at other times. Now you have
crossed your own boundary; but who would know it? You yourself seem not to feel
the transition. The wood is one; and really it is all yours, as it is any man's
who has eyes to enjoy it. Appreciation is ownership. So you go on,
pausing here and there to admire a lichen-covered boulder or stump (there is
nothing prettier, look where you will), a cluster of ferns, a few sprouts of
holly, a sprinkling of pyrola leaves (green with the greenness of all the
summers of the world), or a bed of fruit-bespangled partridge-berry vine, till
by and by you begin to feel the overshadowing, illusion-dispelling,
soul-absorbing presence of the wood itself. The voice of eternity is speaking
in the pine leaves. Your own identity slips away from you as you listen. You
are part of the whole; nay, you are not so much a part of it as lost in it. The
raindrop has fallen into the sea. For a moment you seem almost to divine a
meaning in that bold, pantheistical, much neglected scripture, “That God may be
all in all.” For a moment only.
Then a cord snaps, and you come back to your puny self and its limitations. You
are looking at this and that, just as before. A chickadee chirps, and you
answer him. You are you again, a man who used to be a boy. These are the old
paths, and you are still in the body. You will prove it an hour hence at the
dinner-table. |