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I
A TWILIGHT EPIPHANY The
three worlds worship the sound of the string that twanged of old like the hum
of bees1 as it slipped from faint Love's faltering hand and fell at
his feet unstrung, the bow unbent and the shaft unsped, as if to beg for mercy
from that other shaft of scorching flame that shot from the bow-despising brow
of the moony-crested god. FAR down in the southern quarter, at the very end of the Great Forest, just where the roots of its outmost trees are washed by the waves of the eastern sea, there was of old a city, which stood on the edge of land and water, like as the evening moon hangs where light and darkness meet. And just outside the city wall where the salt sand drifts in the wind, there was a little old ruined empty temple of the Lord of the Moony Tire, whose open door was, as it were, guarded by two sin-destroying images of the Deity and his wife, one on the right of the threshold and the other on the left, looking as if they had suddenly started asunder, surprised by the crowd of devotees, to make a way between. And on an evening long ago, when the sun had finished setting, Maheshwara was returning from Lanka to his own home on Kailas, with Umá in his arms. So as he went, he looked down, and saw the temple away below. And he said to his beloved: Come, now, let us go down, and revisit this little temple, which has stood so long without us. And it looks white in the moon's rays, as if it had turned pale, for fear that we have forgotten it. So when they had
descended, Maheshwara said again: See how these two rude and mutilated effigies
that are meant for thee and me stand, as it were, waiting, like bodies for
their souls. Let us enter in, and occupy, and sanctify these images,2
and rest for a little while, before proceeding to thy father's peaks. And if I
am not mistaken, our presence will be opportune, and this deserted temple will
presently be visited by somebody who stands in sore need of our assistance,
which as long as they remain untenanted these our images cannot give him, since
they have even lost their hands.3 And accordingly they entered, each
into his own image, and remained absolutely still, as though the stone was just
the stone it always was, and nothing more. And yet those stony deities
glistened in the full moon's light, as though the presence of deity had lent
them lustre of their own, that laughed as though to say: See, now we are as
white as the very foam at our feet. So as they stood, silent, and listening to the sound of the sea, all at once there came a man who ran towards them. And taking off his turban, he cast it at the great god's feet, and fell on his face himself. And after a while, he looked up, and joined his hands, and said: O thou Enemy of Love, now there is absolutely no help for me but in the sole of thy foot. For when the sun rose this morning, the Queen was found lying drowned, and all broken to pieces, in the sea foam under the palace wall. And when they ran to tell the King, they found him also lying dead, where he sleeps on his palace roof that hangs over the sea, with a dagger in his heart. And the city is all in uproar, for loss to understand it, and Gangádhara the minister has made of me a victim, by reason of an old grudge. And now my head will be the forfeit, unless I can discover the guilty before the rising of another sun. And thou who knowest all things, past, present, or to come, art become my only refuge. Grant me, of thy favour, a boon, and reveal to me the secret, for who but thyself can possibly discover how the King and Queen have come to this extraordinary end. So as he spoke,
gazing as if in desperation at Maheshwara, all at once, as if moved to
compassion, that image of the Deity turned from the wall towards him, and
nodded at him its stony head: so that in his terror that unhappy mortal nearly
left his own body, and fell to the ground in a swoon. And Maheshwara gazed at
him intently, as he lay, and put him, by his yoga,4
asleep. And the Daughter of the Snow said softly: O Moony-crested, who is this
unlucky person, and what is the truth of this whole matter, for I am curious to
know? And Maheshwara said slowly: O Snowy One, this is the chief of the night
watch of the city; and be under no alarm. For while he sleeps, I will reveal
the truth to him, in a magic dream: making him as it were a third person, to
overhear our conversation. And I will do the same to the prime minister, so
that in the morning, finding their two dreams tally, he will gain credit and
save his life. Thereupon Párwatí said again: O Lord of creation, save mine
also. For I am, as it were, dying of curiosity, to hear how all this came
about. So then, after a
while, that omniscient Deity said slowly: All this has come about, by reason of
a dream. And Gauri said: How could a dream be the cause of death, both to the
King and Queen? Then said Maheshwara: Not only is there danger in dreaming, but
the greatest. Hast thou not seen thy father's woody sides reflected in the
still mirror of his own tarns? And the goddess said: What then? And Maheshwara
said: Hast thou not marked how the reflection painted on the water contains
beauty, drawn, as it were, from its depths, greater by far than does the very
thing it echoes, of which it is nothing but an exact copy? And Párwatí said:
Aye, so it does. Then said Maheshwara: So it is with dreams. For their danger
lies in this very beauty, and like pictures upon quiet water, which contains
absolutely nothing at all, below, they show men, sleeping, visions of
unrealisable beauty, which, being nothing whatever but copies of what they have
seen, awake, possess notwithstanding an additional fascination, not to be found
in the originals, which fills them with insatiable longing and an utter
contempt of all that their waking life contains, as in the present instance: so
that they sacrifice all in pursuit of a hollow phantom, trying to achieve
impossibility, by bringing mind-begotten dream into the sphere of reality,
whither it cannot enter but by ceasing to be dream. But the worst of all is, as
in this King's case, when dreaming is intermingled with the reminiscences of a
former birth: for then it becomes fatality. And Párwatí said: How is that? Then
said Maheshwara: Every soul that is born anew lies buried in oblivion, having
utterly forgotten all its previous existence, which has become for it as a
thing that has never been. And yet, sometimes, when impressions are very vivid,
and memory very strong, here and there an individual soul, steeped, as it were,
in the vat of its own experience, and becoming permanently dyed, as if with
indigo, will laugh, so to say, at oblivion, and carry over indelible
impressions, from one birth to another, and so live on, haunted by dim
recollections that throng his memory like ghosts, and resembling one striving
vainly to recall the loveliness and colour of a flower of which he can remember
absolutely nothing but the scent, whose lost fragrance hangs about him, goading
memory to ineffectual effort, and thus filling him with melancholy which he can
never either dispel or understand. So as he spoke,
there came past the temple door a young man of the Shabara caste, resembling a
tree for his height, carrying towards the forest a young woman of slender
limbs, who was struggling as he held her, and begging to be released; to which
he answered only by laughing as he held her tighter, and giving her every now
and then a kiss as he went along, so that as they passed by, there fell from her
hair a champak flower, which lay
on the ground unheeded after they disappeared. And the Daughter of the Mountain
exclaimed: See, O Moony-crested, this flower laid, as it were, at thy feet as a
suppliant for her protection: for this is a case for thy interference, to save
innocence from evildoing. And Maheshwara
looked at her with affection in his smile. And he said: Not so, O
mountain-born: thou art deceived: since this is a case where interference would
be bitterly resented, not only by the robber, but his prey: for notwithstanding
all her feigned reluctance, this slender one is inwardly delighted, and desires
nothing less than to be taken at her word. For this also is a pair of lovers,
who resemble very closely those other lovers, whose story I am just about to
tell thee: as indeed all lovers are very much the same. For Love is tyranny,
and the essence of the sweetness of its nectar is a despotic authority that is
equally delicious to master and to slave. For just as every male lover loves to
play the tyrant, so does every woman love to play the slave, so much, that
unless her love contains for her the consciousness of slavery, it is less than
nothing in her own eyes, and she does not love at all. And know, that as
nothing in the world is so hateful to a woman as force, exerted on her by a man
she does not love, so nothing fills her with such supreme intoxication as to be
masterfully made by her lover to go along the road of her own inclination,
since so she gets her way without seeming to consent, and is extricated from
the dilemma of deciding between her scruples and her wish. For indecision is
the very nature of every woman, and it is a torture to her, to decide, no
matter how. And even when she does decide, she does so, generally as a victim,
driven by circumstances or desperation, and never as a judge, as in the case of
both those women who determined the destiny of this dead King, the one deciding
in his favour, precisely because he would allow her no choice, and the other
very much against him indeed: and yet both, so to say, without any good reason
at all. For women resemble yonder waves of the sea, things compounded of
passion and emotion, with impulses for arguments, and agitation for energy, for
ever playing, fretting, and moaning with laughter and tears of brine and foam:
and like feminine incarnations of the instability of water, one and the same
essence running through a multitude of contradictory and beautiful qualities
and forms: being cold and hard as ice, and soft and white as snow, and still as
pools, and crooked as rivers, now floating in heaven like clouds and mists and
vapours, and now plunging, like cataracts and waterfalls, into the abyss of
hell. Is not the same water bitter as death to the drowning man, and sweeter
than a draught of nectar, saving the life of the traveller dying of thirst in
the desert sand? So, now, listen,
while I tell thee the story of this King. And as he began to
speak, the wind fell, and the sea slumbered, and the moon crept silently
further up and up the sky. And little by little, the dark shadows stole out
stealthily, moving, as it were, on tiptoe, and hung in corners, here and there,
like ghosts about the little shrine, before which the sleeping man lay white in
the moon's rays, as still as if he were a corpse. And the deep tones of the
Great God's voice seemed like a muttered spell, to lull to sleep the living and
assemble the dead to hear, with demons for dwárapálas
at the door of an ashy tomb. _______________ 1 The bowstring of Love's bow is made
of a line of bees. Love was reduced to ashes by fire from Shiwa's extra eye,
for audaciously attempting to subject that great ascetic to his own power. 2 The real divinity of a Hindoo
temple is not the images outside on its walls, but the symbol (whatever it be)
inside. 3 A common feature throughout India.
Everywhere they went, the devotees of the Koràn used to smash and maim the
Hindoo idols. 4 What we should call, in such a
case, mesmerism: the power of concentrated will. There is something in it,
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